2025-05-21

I wrote an update in April but I deleted it.

Things good. Work good. Weather good. Trying not to be too much of a people pleaser and not to destroy myself in the process.

I've reminded myself of the personal rock-bottom of how I felt in 2022 - every piece of anxiety in my life can be compared to that. Having hit a point where I felt absolutely nothing mattered was kind-of freeing. It wasn't _good_, I don't _recommend_ it, but it provides a benchmark for every other feeling to be measured against.

That was a little bit of a downer there, maybe. Sorry! I am actually feeling pretty good, if mildly overloaded. Just nice to remind myself that I _can_ say "fuck it" to my obligations, without _actually_ saying "fuck it" to them.