25/12/02 - chaos

the last few months have been absolutely insane, and i feel i've barely had time to breathe.

i really don't know what to write at this point - this would have to be a massive post to successfully capture everything that's been going on in my personal and professional life.

and on top of everything else, my family seems to be falling apart, and i wasn't even aware because i've been gone.

i didn't think it would affect me the way it has, but it feels like the one constant that was still a safe place in my life is now gone, and i'm left adrift - still treading water, but now with no clue whether there even is any land to be found.

i've also been hosting people for the past couple weeks, so the simple quiet lifestyle that i've led at home is not really possible for the time being.

i really don't know if i'm just bad at dealing with stress, or if i've just been operating under an unordinate amount of it for too long.

contact me at: tsukaj@tilde.club