25/05/31 - struggling with misanthropy

sometimes i wonder why i even bother trying to do anything worthwhile.

it's hard to tell sometimes if the world has always been like this, or if i've just become more disillusioned as i see more of the world.

how can so many people be so despicable?

how is it that even the seemingly nicest people always have such major flaws once you look at them up close?

i include myself in this of course - sometimes it feels as though i'm the worst person i know.

at least it's easy to believe the bible when it says "there is no one righteous, not one".

and no matter how much i fight, and how much i try to do, there'll be someone who does enough evil to counteract a hundred of my lifetimes.

contact me at: tsukaj@tilde.club