Grandma is okay

2025-10-16

My grandma is in the hospital. She's my last grandparent left. It sounds like she had a stroke, but she is talking an able to communicate and knows her name. She's a tough one. Still, it's hard.

It an interesting stroke of coincidence, this comes just a day after I was told of someone who remembers her from many decades ago when she worked as a nurse at the VA hospital. I think that was well before I was born. Funny how small the world is and so full of coincidences. I'm a little sad, had a few tears. Upon hearing the news from Dad I freaked out a bit, somewhat intentionally, and I think that got it out of my system. I did a few prayers, then almost right after one of them a couple hours later, heard good news about her condition. I'm not sure what I should do. Is it right to let a person that old know how badly a loved one is suffering? Should I hold it in? Probably not. I don't think there's need to be guilty about saying how you really feel. I hope to have the courage to speak my mind when I talk to her later.

I told my friends. That seems like a good sign on my part. Just now I had a flash that maybe thinking about this in terms of how well I am doing mentally is selfish. I don't think it is, that sounds like dumb self-judgement to be guilty over that. Life is fleeting. And unsatisfactory.