Hot and angry

2025-10-01

I am hot and angry. It's hot but not hot enough to swim. The anger is of my own making. Slept poorly the night before and especially last night. Too much caffeine.

Taking a moment right now to breathe. Left nostril is clogged. Lower back is sore. Beard feels long. Mouth is dehydrated. All of these are easily solved. Or accepted.

Oh boy did Vajrapani help today. I feel that hate I have for Hamas giving way to compassion, ever so slowly. Beyond that, tonight I came to appreciate just how deep my practice is. I hadn't written down anyting about my daily life efforts until now, but the capsule has been updated with that now.

The best practice is the one you do, Lama Lena says. I do a lot more than I thought. I should give myself due credit for that. I offer it to my gurus.