Monsoon rain

2025-09-26

Very nice rain today. I have the screen door open to hear the sounds because it's actually cool enough. Argos didn't want to go outside, but he'll be fine soon. Overate and spent the earlier part of the day in an unwholesome state, but I felt better after a shower. Now I'm listening to a podcast.

In the shower I was thinking artists sometimes feel disgusted at what they've created. I don't look that critically at what I write, but I do sometimes get a feeling of, "What is the point?"

A sigh. I don't know. What is the point. It's definitely helping somehow, I'm just not sure what to do next. Reifying my ego through writing about some of the topics I've chosen might not be best. Then again, what is best? Is perfection what I should be after? Am I even after that or was "best" just a choice of words.

For a while now I've also been trying to get through My Hero Academia on Juan's recommendation. It's garbage. I can't. Not even by keeping it on in the background, though that got me to S5E20. I haven't felt like this since trying to force myself to watch Bleach. It's just a deluge of mediocrity. Decen fight animation but utterly pointless from the writing perspective. I need something better to watch.