Early doubt

2025-09-02

I'm having some doubts about this endeavor even as I am filled with ideas. This morning I decided to try some controversial search terms on Kennedy and it didn't take long for me to

find a capsule complaining about being banned from Antenna. I don't yet know if I want anyone reading this, but if I decide I do, I will have to remember to leave myself off that.

There also appears to be some missing conversations on Bubble. The last thing I want is to devote too much effort to this project only to find out it is filled with smallminded people

with all the tired old arguments I've seen on social media over the past decade. Ethics are important to me and I don't subscribe to nasty views, but I like to be able to see them. I

don't want other people deciding that for me like I'm a child.

I'm not sure how long I will remain at SDF. Checking my capsule just now, the entire SDF capsule was unreachable and I wonder how often that happens. If outages like that happen too

often I will have to find alternatives. If I run out of space or up against a file quota, that's another reason I will have to move. That shouldn't happen for a while and maybe I'm

getting ahead of myself, but I do intent to write here often.

Activity levels are also not great. That was apparent right from the start. I can tell there are a decent amount of people on Gemini because Astrobotany seems very popular and gets

used often, but I don't see much interaction. I need to see a lot of interaction in order to determine if the people here are capable of productive disagreements. I suppose it still

might not be a waste of time to post here even if they are.

Not every roadblock is external though. I spent a good chunk of yesterday fixing a mouse issue on this laptop seemingly rooted in drivers and battery conservation measures. If I don't

have the hardware, I can't contribute. If I don't have the peace of mind to write everyday, I won't write everyday. What happens if I lose motivation? With no way for people to

comment on my capsule, I don't have any feedback. People can leave messages on Station or Bubble but I haven't linked it in both directions yet because I still don't know what kind of

audience I want, if I want one, or when I want one. Without a lot of activity I might find that my brain has been thoroughly social media poisoned too, albeit in a different way than

the censorious folk.

On the bright side, I am filled with ideas. I think about how many board game reviews I want to write. Should I do one for every new game? Or just the ones that get me thinking about

them deeply enough for some long writeups? Should I have a separate writing space for political topics? I have seen people create polls; should I spend the time learning how to do

that so I can write for an audience? Even as I type that last one, that seems like a bad idea. The last thing I need is to go down the audience capture route so many others in the

regular web have. However, I do think keeping a list of topics or improvements to my capsule I want to make might be a good idea.

This looks like the most I have written so far. Perhaps that's a good place to end it. Do I need a sign-off phrase? Fair winds.