Melancholy

04 Oct 2025

Last month the winter ended (I live in south hemisphere, the winter here is from June till September). I was feeling like I won’t survive this winter. It was too hard for me morally.

When I immigrated from my country a few years ago, someone told me that for the immigrant the February (as the last winter month in north hemisphere) is the hardest month, when everything seems hopeless. And in this moment a lot of immigrants give up and come back to their countries. I thought it won’t happen to me, but at February I was really in awful mood. I didn’t see anything positive around. All the people were serious and unfriendly, the weather was cold, the trees were gray and ugly.

But then, when the spring came, it was like somebody turn the switch and everything became bright and positive again.

Now the third winter passed in immigration and the third time I faced with melancholy. I don’t know, maybe before I’ve heard about this phenomenon, I had the same thing during all my life. But now after the latest period I really afraid the next one.