Trying to pull myself together

18 Sep 2025

Yesterday I came back to my "messenger" pet-project. I have not touched it for a month because I was disappointed by the number of items in to-do list for this project. Actually, I have similar problem for all of my projects, and all of them are stuck because of that. The problem is when I trying to finalize some milestone (like for this messenger, my nearest milestone is to run it in test mode among my friends), and trying to close the necessary items in to-do list, I close one item and add two instead. This is not about perfectionism, but usually I find some critical bug or logic error. The last time, right before I gave up on my messenger, I found a lack in app's architecture, and I spent one week to fix it. I was exhausted...

After that I was being in awful mood, because I understood that ALL of my projects were stuck the same way. I was trying to escape from my tough thoughts, starting to work more and play video games. And only couple of days ago I finally discovered some power inside of me to come back to my projects.

Well, yesterday and today I have worked on account recovery functionality. It's doing well, while not so fast as I would desire. But anyway, I'm feeling good now, seeing how it is moving step by step.