Checking in – March, April and May 2025

The watch-word of this entire season has been "akrasia". I think I will also say that this is the log for May on top of the missing months, unless things evolve otherwise.

A minor scrape

I got into my first car accident. Nothing big, no one was hurt, hell, nothing really big happened to my (?) car. But I have to pay a sum to make the problem go away and it wasn't great.

I have had this reason as to why I don't really like driving, especially because the cars are very large and they are not great at manoeuvring in small spaces which is what a city has in general. But oh well.

I haven't driven much more after this, and while I try to think it's not because of this incident it might well have been.

Health: eyesight, weight and flares

Shortly after that, I can feel my eyes growing tired much quicker during the day. It must be because of too much looking at the mobile phone and the computer. I need some alternative source of stimulation if I am to not look at them all of the time. In effect it means that I find it difficult to focus on things coming close to the end of the afternoon and into the night, and then I go to bed or wash my face and it clears up again until I sleep and wake up fresh once more. I think I have to look outside and look at far things a bit more... allegedly driving helps with this actually, so that might be a thing I might think about.

I had one night of flare-up recently. I don't know why that happened, but thankfully it went away after another day has passed.

Meanwhile, I'm putting in some effort to try and arrest my weight gain, and it is mostly successful. Right now, I'm mid-62 still, occasionally bumping into 63 kg on a day-by-day basis. Again, I really shouldn't be too concerned about it, but on the other hand, I think it's just too easy to gain weight and difficult to lose it.

Creative works and being stuck on the doom scrolling loop

I have been able to write some new pages over this period of time and in fact finish a notebook, and now I have a supply of notebooks that should last about a year or two at the current pace.

I have completed an update of my notebook page scan organisation system into a full-fledged SQlite database, but there is still some room to go here. Specifically, I need to be able to create a new database like this from scratch, because I have a separate, partially related set of image files to match.

The Wordle collector has been working great and has given me no problems for these few months. I'm happy with that.

But what I'm less happy with, and something that I think is a fairly serious problem, is that Twitter has dragged me back in once again. It's just too easy to get interested in whatever disaster has happened to the world in the past few days and it's almost certainly helping it. It /really/ doesn't help that the app continues to show me videos in adverts when I told it to not show videos on mobile data so my mobile data use definitely shows its problems. I hate it so much, and yet I feel somewhat powerless to get out of it. By writing this I hope to regain the power to at least click out of it when I'm out on the street when I can be looking outside.

/Started/ on a job search

One bright side in this rather unhappy quarter is that I somehow managed to scrounge up enough wherewithal to figure out how to use the government jobs portal to find jobs that I can actually do. Now I can more or less say truthfully I have a year's worth of tutoring experience under my belt, I can probably just apply to jobs like this.

Then I have to rewrite my CV and things have stalled since then.

But at least that's a way forward.