@punkreflex (re: resisting change) i feel like i struggle to understand when people make changes for their own good. like i struggle understanding people not doing what i do (which is stay in place, regardless of how much staying hurts, because the fear of things changing for the worse is enough to make me want to keep trying in vain to make things work as they are, even when clearly they arent).

like our old apartment was condemned and the mold was literally making us sick but i still didnt want to leave because i was scared we would somehow move somewhere worse LOLOL

like thats so silly!!!!!! and then i was mad that my roommate was like

no. we're leaving now. which was the normal response.

or i stayed in a not very good relationship that i was constantly questioning because i was scared that i would somehow end up w something worse

or i stayed living at home for college because i was scared of being out in the world on my own

like these are all rlly normal things to leave and want to do so why am i upset that people want to leave when i selfishly might be saddened by their absence because i do not have the bravery that they do. like thats so goofy but i still feel it. just something i need to work on

@lucky (re:missing AI.... 11/10) i miss prank calling my little brother w the ai chat bots that sound like the anime characters he likes

@bigassbug (re:growing pains 11/15) im actually laughing at how similarly our brains are working at the same time rn i turned 23 and suddenly wus like wait…..

why am i lowkey feeling my frontal cortex developing rn i actually need to fix my entire life all at the same time right now at this moment

actually this kind of doesnt make sense as a response but what im trying to say is that i see u and hear u